Life is not a journey to the grave with intentions of arriving safely in a pretty well-preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out and loudly proclaiming … Wow! What a ride!



This arrived in the post this morning. Its a locket that my best friend got from her grandmother, who apparently had it when she was a child. To think that my best friends mother thinks of me when she sees this makes me realise that the effect we had on each others lives was real.
I miss her a lot but now I can take her with me wherever I go.
x B


I just wanted to let you know that I am on my way to Veerle’s memorial service. If you want me to tell you know it went, just inbox me (preferably off anon, as this is not everyone’s business, just didn’t know how to get in touch with you otherwise). I hope you don’t mind, that I used the “if you feel small and like you can’t make a difference, spend one night in a tent with a mosquito” proverb, it just sums her character up so well.
Have a nice day (or as nice as it can get after this) x
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Anonymous
Yes that definitely sounds like her! She had the best comparisons, weirdest ideas and craziest stories. Thanks for sharing this with me, it made me smile. The first genuine smile in a long time
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Anonymous
Hey, I am so sorry you had to find out this way. She meant to much to all of us that I can fully relate to what you are going through. I spent the first week crying all day, even on the way to the airport and the plane home, just couldn’t keep it together for longer than the time it took me to say “please leave me alone” to any stranger offering help. I know people say “it gets easier” but I honestly haven’t gotten there yet, so I can’t be of much help. If you want to talk about her, just come off anon and I can reply privately? I would love to find out who you are and what you guys talked about :) She was a great friend, and inspiration and a role model to a lot of people, and it makes me proud to having had the chance of being one of them. We are the Veerle-Elite. Lots of love and stay strong! xxx

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It is hard to watch someone you love leave, but the pain is taken to a whole new level if the leaving is permanent, and it breaks all records of pain if that person is barely 20 and was fit as ever just 1 month ago.
She seems to have come to terms with it, but i haven’t and I really wish this wasn’t it. There is so much we had planned, and so much I wanted to tell her, so so much.
So yes, excuse me if I am planning on getting drunk and making this pain beyond belief bearable, if I vanish off the radar for a while and if I come back a changed person. You might not like what you see, but you will have to deal with it, as this is something most of you haven’t been put through and hopefully never will. This feeling is something I would never wish my worst enemy, it is not fair.
The only thing keeping me sane is the fact that she herself said, she was ready to go, and that makes me hope that she knows what she is doing right now.
I have seized existing, moved on to a lighter being, and I hope that part of me is up there with you, whilst the other part is down here doing the daily routine, no matter how badly it hurts me.
I will always love you and you will forever be my best friend, nothing can change that. I am so insanely proud to have ever known you, I don’t know where I would be without you right now.
These days are not getting any better. Excuse me if I go MIA for a few, but today my world decided to stop existing the way I was used to…Adjustments and amends are in order but that will take a while.
So if those few followers I managed to gather decide to check up on me, I will reply eventually, but not immediately…
One thing that makes gloomy days pass by faster is music. I spent 1 hour today in front of my tutors closed office door listening to music and it felt like 10 minutes. A tiny bit of promoting: Check out trebuchets, awesome music got me through the day. But psst, those guys were in my class today and they have no clue…I’m not a creepy stalker!
Anyways! Have a nice life, get drunk for me, go out for me, get bad/good grades for me and most of all enjoy life for me, until i get back. Thanks x


